cyanide1209

what a stressful week pay check is like 300 bucks less than i was expecting and find out im not going to be maken as much as i was thinking so i will not be able to get my own place that really really put one HUGE downer on my mood for the past few weeks and the 4 days from saturday to tuesday i did nothing but wear myself into the ground each day saturday being the worse and is what just made the next 3 days so hard becouse i was so soar and tired and exhausted (but it was all worth it) but anyway yesterday wednesday my only real day off the week i had planed to just relax and revive myself 7 in the morning get a call from my brother and hes got a bit of a emergency that he needs me to help him get it fixed was originally supose to just take 30miutes to a hour so im like alright no problem it ended up taken almost 5-6 hours cuz just stupid things requiring me to go from one place to the other and back and forth and back and forth was really anoying and just wore me out again and then i was going to buy a new air tank from some kid but also wonted to go to a friends h ouse but cuz of how late he wonted to meet i couldnt till after and so i go to meet him wait for over a hour and he never shows up n i get kicked off the place for loitering and by that time its so late i almost dont wont to go to my friends cuz it was late but eventualy decide fuck it ill go n stop to eat on the way n see this supa cute girl that works their unfortunately im way to shy to say 5 words to her everytime i see her n then go to see my friend n as i get their start talkin about the girl and telling her to teach me how to talk to a girl well wound up her and her mom despite my saying not to do it go to her work to ask her over for diner this saturday and well it all went quite well to my suprise turned my shity stressfull day into a pretty good ending of a day =] do hope will also continue to get even better before to long here hope saturday goes well

my neck randomly out of nowhere started hurting super bad like 15 minutes ago i dont like it

i also will have some more pics up sometime in the next week-2weeks

today was a day a great day at that it kinda hurts to type this actualy im really really really really tired and drained of all energy its a struggle to walk from room to room or hold my head up i will be sleeping once the laundry is done im exited for the sleeping today was great i shot many a people n got shot my share as well day started kinda meeeeh not fantastic but after a short little bit picked it up and was doin great twas a good day i hope tomarow works out ok its gunna be a long day i think

im definety haveing to long of breaks between paintball trips every time i go im just that much more out of practice didnt do bad just im loosing thows little things i should know better by now but with so long of breaks between just yeah getting out of practice saturday was a good day though the bus ride really put its number on me and wore me the out something good on the way back i was so glad to walk threw my front door and jsut sit down but it was all well worth it one think kinda made me mad but amazed and couldnt stop laughing aout it at the same time second game into the day dive into the snake and start crawling up and get shot in the gun so i go off the field and go to wipe off the hit and my trigger is gone they shot off my trigger what the fuck are the odds of that and no one had ever seen anything like it i was left with a little nub the rest of the day made it a little annoying but i weathered fine n just gotta wait for next paycheck to get another one

i may as well just stop telling you i WILL have new pics seems more often than not when i do i dont get any ONCE AGAIN PAINTBALLING DIDNT HAPPEN swear i may as well take the bus every week at least that seems to be a little more reliable but then also gotta get work off hrrr how annoying

a friend from work may be helping me get a possible start into voice overs for cartoons and such and possibly acting or something like that would probly be more interested in cartoon voices or something than actual acting but pays fucking amazingly but i will have to pay a pretty penny to start it out but i duno its still in the thinking and planning stage as of now but i have kinda wonted to do something with cartoons since i was a little kid and my family and alot of my friends have always told me i should so i duno maybe

i really need to paintball i know if said it in pretty much ever journal entry for the past 9+ months but hrr fuck i need to get a car i need to stop relying on others for a ride the hospital is now FINALLY over and done thank you god so now i can FINALLY start actually getting saving up for a car
but yeah im deffinetly really stressed out right now i really need to go paintballing

i forgot what i was originaly going to wright about and i had just htought about it 30 seconds ago

spring hasnt even fully sunkin in and im already despising the heat and its not even hot yet think we hit 90 the other day hrr i should really find a new place to move to i hate arizona each year the heat is getting to me more and more winter is way to short (all this shit talk of the heat is only the valley of arizona head north and whoow its perfect) although my mental state as of late has been a little better i think this summer will be a little easier to bear just cuz im feeling better that does have a bit of a say on how things effect ya yeah so hopefully itll be ok and i will b e spending a good amount of time out in the heat this summer so im goig to have to get use to it i guess

i will be buying a new bed in a few weeks (finally) then i will finally have room in my room for me and somewhere to actulay sit aside from at the computer maybe i will then be off the computer a little less i could really use that im on this thing to much and i can get back to reading

have been getting out a little more lately got a new bike and since i have just been wonting to ride kinda odd for me wonting to be out when i despise being out still not like im putting myself exactly around people im just ridding the street but whatever

i will be doing more pics again soon it has been FORFUCKINGEVER since i have really gone out and taken many pics im missing it feel i have kinda fallen away from it and im not liking that gotta spark that flame inside again

im looking forward to this next weekend hopefully will be a great one =] and i will definitely have some new paintball pics and while their i will try to get some random nature shots of around the field and such n junk

fantastic mr fox is officially one of the greatest movies EVER